Okay. Then...I can talk. Ask me something.Okay. He laughs shakily in my ear. Why is your heart racing TrisI cringe and say Well I...I barely know you. I barely know you and Im crammed up against you in a box Four what do you think...Maybe you were cut out for Candor he says because youre a terrible liar.

Fear doesnt shut you down it wakes you up. Ive seen it. Its fascinating. He releases me but doesnt pull away his hand grazing my jaw my neck. Sometimes I just...want to see it again. Want to see you awake.

Yeah well I say I left Abnegation because I wasnt selfless enough no matter how hard I tried to be.Thats not entirely true. He smiles at me. That girl who let someone throw knives at her to spare a friend who hit my dad with a belt to protect me-that selfless girl thats not you...Youve been paying close attention havent youI like to observe peopleMaybe you were cut out for Candor Four because youre a terrible liar.

I belong to the people I love and they belong to me--they and the love and loyaty I give them form my identity far more than any word or group ever could.

I wonder if fears ever really go away or if they just lose their power over us.

I fell in love with him. But I dont just stay with him by default as if theres no one else available to me. I stay with him because I choose to every day that I wake up every day that we fight or lie to each other or disappoint each other. I choose him over and over again and he chooses me.

Then I realize what it is. Its him. Something about him makes me feel like I am about to fall. Or turn to liquid. Or burst into flames.

I have something I need to tell you he says. I run my fingers along the tendons in his hands and look back at him. I might be in love with you. He smiles a little. Im waiting until Im sure to tell you though.Thats sensible of you I say smiling too. We should find some paper so you can make a list or a chart or something.I feel his laughter against my side his nose sliding along my jaw his lips pressing my ear.Maybe Im already sure he says and I just dont want to frighten you.I laugh a little. Then you should know better.Fine he says. Then I love you.