It feels like the world is folding up around me like origami paper and Im trapped inside of its breathless center.

Im tired of justifying why I love someone. Im done with the explaining.

Ive grown up defined by this desperate undeniable cant breathe kind of space inside of myself and Im afraid that the diagnosis is fatal.

But I love you and I want you and I need you. Cant you see that This world has nothing to offer me if it doesnt include you.

I ruin everything. I think that a bullet must have passed through my heart when I was very young causing me to bleed out slowly over things and people and every white surface that Id ever come across.

I tried to push my body through his and completely disappear.

I fantasize the night sky to be like a cosmic blue print of my life as I close my eyes and unbutton my heart. just in case anyone up there is listening.

Discouragement fear and depressionthree villains who lurk in the dark.They slip inside souls with a blindfold and goals to shatter your dreams and extinguish your spark.Their tactics are highly effective.They crush a great many each day.And under their spell it is easy to dwellOn fiascoes and failures that end in dismay.The heart and the mind are left heavy.The last speck of will is erased.And nothing stays on when these villains are gonebut a mouthful of bile with the bitterest taste.Alas You must conquer the scoundrelsElude dodge and keep them at bayTo feel fear slink in boring under your skinis a sign that his brothers are well on their way.So reach for your weapons against themTake hope and hard work in each handStrap faith on your hips and a prayer on your lipsand show those debasers how firmly you standDiscouragement fear and depressionthe truth should be known of these cads.Theyre empty and weak it is your strength they seek.Deny them and life is your wish in the bag.

I dont ever want to hurt anyone but I really wish there was something like a reset button on my life.

Time is the most threatening four letter word.