I want to be the best version of myself for anyone who is going to someday walk into my life and need someone to love them beyond reason.

For so many years I couldnt understand why every time I thought that someone finally loved me like for real they would eventually turn to vapor. Every person whom Ive ever loved is trapped inside of my chest. Ive breathed all of them in so deeply that Ive nearly choked and died on every soul that Ive ever given myself to.

My dreams are going through their death flurries. I thought they were all safely buried but sometimes they stir in their grave making my heartstrings twinge. I mean no particular dream you understand but the whole radiant flock of them togetherwith their rainbow wings iridescent bright soaring glorious sublime. They are dying before the steel javelins and arrows of a world of Time and Money.

So many people will tell you no and you need to find something you believe in so hard that you just smile and tell them watch me. Learn to take rejection as motivation to prove people wrong. Be unstoppable. Refuse to give up no matter what. Its the best skill you can ever learn.

Don't you find it odd," she continued, "that when you're a kid, everyone, all the world, encourages you to follow your dreams. But when you're older, somehow they act offended if you even try.

I think she is growing up and so begins to dream dreams and have hopes and fears and fidgets without knowing why or being able to explain them.

Never did the world make a queen of a girl who hides in houses and dreams without traveling.