That this girl would know exactly how to shatter me.

And Ive fallen.So hard.Ive hit the ground. Gone right through it. Never in my life have I felt this. Nothing like this. Ive felt shame and cowardice weakness and strength. Ive known terror and indifference self-hate and general disgust. Ive seen things that cannot be unseen.And yet Ive known nothing like this terrible horrible paralyzing feeling. I feel crippled. Desperate and out of control. And it keeps getting worse. Every day I feel sick. Empty and somehow aching.Love is a heartless bastard.