I wanted so much when I was young. I was an endless abyss of want of need of desperate dreams for myself that defied logic. The promise of what was to come hung like rings around the moon on clear autumn nights the future was unmistakeable. It was always there glistening in the dark and suggesting that life was little more than climbing a ladder into the sky where I could reach up with one hand and secure everything that I had ever hoped for in my grasping fingers.Oh I dreamed.And they are not easy to give up these dreams.