Please Whoever you are whatever you are I believe in you even though I dont completely understand you. I feel you around me even though I cant exactly describe what Im feeling. Sometimes things happen to me and I know that youre there and Im humbled by the lack of coincidence that exists in the world. Whatever you want from me its yours just please help me. You know how I get when I lose control and I find myself constantly being pulled back there these days.

Stop trying to be less of who you are. Let this time in your life cut you open and drain all of the things that are holding you back.

Ive always seen this in you ever since you were a little girl this hunger to love other people into their highest selves and its what has made me irreversibly and just so forever in love with you.

Dont worry if people think youre crazy. You are crazy. You have that kind of intoxicating insanity that lets other people dream outside of the lines and become who theyre destined to be.

I look out into the water and up deep into the stars. I beg the sparkling lanterns of light to cure me of myself my past and the kaleidoscope of mistakes failures and wrong turns that have stacked unbearable regret upon my shoulders.

I can do this I can start over. I can save my own life and Im never going to be alone as long as I have stars to wish on and people to still love.

I want to be the best version of myself for anyone who is going to someday walk into my life and need someone to love them beyond reason.

For so many years I couldnt understand why every time I thought that someone finally loved me like for real they would eventually turn to vapor. Every person whom Ive ever loved is trapped inside of my chest. Ive breathed all of them in so deeply that Ive nearly choked and died on every soul that Ive ever given myself to.