You have made a place in my heart where I thought there was no room for anything else. You have made flowers grow where I cultivated dust and stones. Remember this on this journey you insist on making. If you die I will not survive you long.

Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it and it darts away.

Would you just stay with meStay with you What for Look at us Were already fightingWell thats what we do We fight You tell me when Im being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when youre being a pain in the ass Which you are 99 of the time. Im not afraid to hurt your feelings you have like a two-second rebound rate and youre back doing the next pain in the ass thing.So whatSo its not gonna be easy its gonna be really hard. And were gonna have to work at this everyday but I wanna do that because I want you. I want all of you forever. You and me. Everyday.

To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. But to be fully known and truly loved is well a lot like being loved by God. It is what we need more than anything. It liberates us from pretense humbles us out of our self-righteousness and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us.

Because love love is never finished. It circles and circles the memories out of order and not always complete.

That was the only time as I stood there looking at that strange rubbish feeling the wind coming across those empty fields that I started to imagine just a little fantasy thing because this was Norfolk after all and it was only a couple of weeks since Id lost him. I was thinking about the rubbish the flapping plastic in the branches the shore-line of odd stuff caught along the fencing and I half-closed my eyes and imagined this was the spot where everything Id ever lost since my childhood had washed up and I was now standing here in front of it and if I waited long enough a tiny figure would appear on the horizon across the field and gradually get larger until Id see it was Tommy and hed wave maybe even call. The fantasy never got beyond that --I didnt let it-- and though the tears rolled down my face I wasnt sobbing or out of control. I just waited a bit then turned back to the car to drive off to wherever it was I was supposed to be.

They say If a man knew himselfhe would know all mankind.I say If a man loved mankindhe would know something of himself.

In a strange way I had fallen in love with my depression. Dr. Sterling was right about that. I loved it because I thought it was all I had. I thought depression was the part of my character that made me worthwhile. I thought so little of myself felt that I had such scant offerings to give to the world that the one thing that justified my existence at all was my agony.

Just for future reference dont use words like love anymore. Its a very sensitive word and it wears out quickly. Romeo barely says it but John Hinckley filled up a whole journal with it. To put it into your terms its a currency thats easily devalued. Pretty soon youre saying it whenever you hang up the phone or whenever you leave. It turns into an apology. Then its an excuse. Some assholes want it to be a bulletproof vest dont hate me I love you. But mostly it just means--more. More more--give me something more. A couple of years from now when youre on your own completely if you really fall in love if it really comes to that--and I pity you if it does--you have to look right down into the black of her eyes right down into the emptiness in there and feel everything absolutely everything she needs and you have to be willing to drown in it Kevin. Youd have to want to be crushed buried alive. Because thats what real love feels like--choking. They used to bury some women in their wedding dresses you know. I thought it was because all those husbands were too cheap to spring for another gown but now it makes sense love is your first foot in the grave. Thats why the second most abused word is forever.

Dance. Smile. Giggle. Marvel. TRUST. HOPE. LOVE. WISH. BELIEVE. Most of all enjoy every moment of the journey and appreciate where you are at this moment instead of always focusing on how far you have to go.