Im tired of justifying why I love someone. Im done with the explaining.

Ive grown up defined by this desperate undeniable cant breathe kind of space inside of myself and Im afraid that the diagnosis is fatal.

But I love you and I want you and I need you. Cant you see that This world has nothing to offer me if it doesnt include you.

I ruin everything. I think that a bullet must have passed through my heart when I was very young causing me to bleed out slowly over things and people and every white surface that Id ever come across.

I tried to push my body through his and completely disappear.

I fantasize the night sky to be like a cosmic blue print of my life as I close my eyes and unbutton my heart. just in case anyone up there is listening.

I dont ever want to hurt anyone but I really wish there was something like a reset button on my life.

Time is the most threatening four letter word.

He could pour himself into my little paper cup heart and my emptiness would finally have a meaning.

I write letters to you that youll never see.