In that moment I welcomed back the light and let go of the fear the feelings of unworthiness the past the loss the wallowing the grief and the anger. I let go of the illusion of control in our losses of our afflictions.

Some part of me broke in prayer that morning and some part of me was reborn as I gave myself fully and completely to prayer and to God in that moment.

As I was wheeled into the operating room I pleaded withGod for one more day one more week one more month with her.