I just remembered a time when to warm up my spirit I prayed movement is spirit. Prayer was a means of mutely and hidden from others reaching myself. When I prayed I achieved an emptiness of soul - and that emptiness is all I can ever have. Besides that nothing. But the emptiness has the value and appearance of plenty. One way of getting is not looking one way of having is not asking and only believing that the silence I believe to be inside me is the answer to my - to my mystery.