I wanted to tell her everything maybe if Id been able to we could have lived differently maybe Id be there with you now instead of here. Maybe... if Id said Im so afraid of losing something I love that I refuse to love anything maybe that would have made the impossible possible. Maybe but I couldnt do it I had buried too much too deeply inside me. And here I am instead of there.
Voicemail 1 Hi Isabel Culpeper. I am lying in my bed looking at the ceiling. I am mostly naked. I am thinking of your mother.