I wanted to tell her everything maybe if Id been able to we could have lived differently maybe Id be there with you now instead of here. Maybe... if Id said Im so afraid of losing something I love that I refuse to love anything maybe that would have made the impossible possible. Maybe but I couldnt do it I had buried too much too deeply inside me. And here I am instead of there.
One rarely falls in love without being as much attracted to what is interestingly wrong with someone as what is objectively healthy.