His lips soften into a smile that cracks apart my spine. He repeats my name like the word amuses him. Entertains him. Delights him. In seventeen years no one has said my name like that

Look at me chica. When she does I repeat Eres hermosa.What does it meanYoure beautiful.

Did you know I always thought you were braver than me Did you ever guess that that was why I was so afraid It wasnt that I only loved some of you. But I wondered if you could ever love more than some of me. I knew Id miss you. But the surprising thing is you never leave me. I never forget a thing. Every kind of love it seems is the only one. It doesnt happen twice. And I never expected that you could have a broken heart and love with it too so much that it doesnt seem broken at all. I know young people look at me and think my youth seems so far away but its all around me and youre all around me. Tiger Lily do you think magic exists if it can be explained I can explain why I loved you I can explain the theory of evolution that tells me why mermaids live in Neverland and nowhere else. But it still feels magic. The lost boys all stood at our wedding. Does it seem odd to you that they could have stood at a wedding that wasnt yours and mine It does to me. and Im sorry for it and for a lot and I also wouldnt change it. It is so quiet here. Even with all the trains and the streets and the people. Its nothing like the jungle. The boys have grown. Everything has grown. Do you think you will ever grow I hope not. I like to think that even if I change and fade away some other people wont. I like to think that one day after I die at least one small particle of me - of all the particles that will spread everywhere - will float all the way to Neverland and be part of a flower or something like that like that poet said the one that your Tik Tok loved. I like to think that nothings final and that everyone gets to be together even when it looks like they dont that it all works out even when all the evidence seems to say something else that you and I are always young in the woods and that Ill see you sometime again even if its not with any kind of eyes I know of or understand. I wouldnt be surprised if that is the way things go after all - that all things end happy. Even for you and Tik Tok. and for you and me.Always Your PeterP.S. Please give my love to Tink. She was always such a funny little bug.

To the people who love you you are beautiful already. This is not because theyre blind to your shortcomings but because they so clearly see your soul. Your shortcomings then dim by comparison. The people who care about you are willing to let you be imperfect and beautiful too. 20

It happens like this. One day you meet someone and for some inexplicable reason you feel more connected to this stranger than anyone else--closer to them than your closest family. Perhaps this person carries within them an angel--one sent to you for some higher purpose to teach you an important lesson or to keep you safe during a perilous time. What you must do is trust in them--even if they come hand in hand with pain or suffering--the reason for their presence will become clear in due time.Though here is a word of warning--you may grow to love this person but remember they are not yours to keep. Their purpose isnt to save you but to show you how to save yourself. And once this is fulfilled the halo lifts and the angel leaves their body as the person exits your life. They will be a stranger to you once more.-------------------------------------------------Its so dark right now I cant see any light around me. Thats because the light is coming from you. You cant see it but everyone else can.

What would you do if I kissed you right nowI stared at his beautiful face and his beautiful mouth and I wanted nothing more than to taste it. I would kiss you back.

Do not fall in love with people like me. I will take you to museums and parks and monuments and kiss you in every beautiful place so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth.I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible. And when I leave you will finally understand why storms are named after people.

Youre like a song that I heard when I was a little kid but forgot I knew until I heard it again.

It was many and many a year agoIn a kingdom by the seaThat a maiden there lived whom you may knowBy the name of ANNABEL LEEAnd this maiden she lived with no other thoughtThan to love and be loved by me.I was a child and she was a childIn this kingdom by the seaBut we loved with a love that was more than love-I and my Annabel LeeWith a love that the winged seraphs of heavenCoveted her and me.And this was the reason that long agoIn this kingdom by the seaA wind blew out of a cloud chillingMy beautiful Annabel LeeSo that her highborn kinsman cameAnd bore her away from meTo shut her up in a sepulchreIn this kingdom by the sea.The angels not half so happy in heavenWent envying her and me-Yes- that was the reason as all men knowIn this kingdom by the seaThat the wind came out of the cloud by nightChilling and killing my Annabel Lee.But our love it was stronger by far than the loveOf those who were older than we-Of many far wiser than we-And neither the angels in heaven aboveNor the demons down under the seaCan ever dissever my soul from the soulOf the beautiful Annabel Lee.For the moon never beams without bringing me dreamsOf the beautiful Annabel LeeAnd the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyesOf the beautiful Annabel LeeAnd so all the night-tide I lie down by the sideOf my darling- my darling- my life and my brideIn the sepulchre there by the seaIn her tomb by the sounding sea.

Im oxygen and hes dying to breathe.