Ive never forgotten him. Dare I say I miss him I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart. I still cannot understand how he could abandon me so unceremoniously without any sort of goodbye without looking back even once. The pain is like an axe that chops my heart.
Okay. Then...I can talk. Ask me something.Okay. He laughs shakily in my ear. Why is your heart racing TrisI cringe and say Well I...I barely know you. I barely know you and Im crammed up against you in a box Four what do you think...Maybe you were cut out for Candor he says because youre a terrible liar.
Well its true that I have been hurt in my life. Quite a bit. But its also true that I have loved and been loved. and that carries a weight of its own. A greater weight in my opinion. Its like that pie chart we talked about earlier. in the end Ill look back on my life and see that the greatest piece of it was love. The problems the divorces the sadness... those will be there too but just smaller slivers tiny pieces.
...unrequited love does not die its only beaten down to a secret place where it hides curled and wounded. For some unfortunates it turns bitter and mean and those who come after pay the price for the hurt done by the one who came before.