Scrubbing the floor when no one else wanted to was something that my mother would have done. If I cant be with her the least I can do is act like her sometimes.
Famous Quotes about divergent
Eric called Als suicide brave and he was wrong. My mothers death was brave. I remember how calm she was how determined. It isnt just brave that she died for me it is brave that she did it without announcing it without hesitation and without appearing to consider another option.
Wait a second Four says. I turn toward him wondering which version of Four Ill see now-the one who scolds me or the one who climbs Ferris wheels with me. He smiles a little but the smile doesnt spread to his eyes which look less tense and worried.You belong here you know that he says. You belong with us. Itll be over soon so just hold on okayHe scratches behind his ear and looks away like hes embarrassed by what he said. I stare at him. I feel my heartbeat everywhere even in my toes. I feel like doing something bold but I could just as easily walk away. I am not sure which option is smarter or better. I am not sure that I care.I reach out and take his hand. His fingers slide between mine. I cant breathe. I stare up at him and he stares down at me. For a long moment we stay that way. Then I pull my hand away and run after Uriah and Lynn and Marlene. Maybe now he thinks Im stupid or strange. Maybe it was worth it.
Okay. Then...I can talk. Ask me something.Okay. He laughs shakily in my ear. Why is your heart racing TrisI cringe and say Well I...I barely know you. I barely know you and Im crammed up against you in a box Four what do you think...Maybe you were cut out for Candor he says because youre a terrible liar.
Fear doesnt shut you down it wakes you up. Ive seen it. Its fascinating. He releases me but doesnt pull away his hand grazing my jaw my neck. Sometimes I just...want to see it again. Want to see you awake.
Yeah well I say I left Abnegation because I wasnt selfless enough no matter how hard I tried to be.Thats not entirely true. He smiles at me. That girl who let someone throw knives at her to spare a friend who hit my dad with a belt to protect me-that selfless girl thats not you...Youve been paying close attention havent youI like to observe peopleMaybe you were cut out for Candor Four because youre a terrible liar.
Then I realize what it is. Its him. Something about him makes me feel like I am about to fall. Or turn to liquid. Or burst into flames.
I have something I need to tell you he says. I run my fingers along the tendons in his hands and look back at him. I might be in love with you. He smiles a little. Im waiting until Im sure to tell you though.Thats sensible of you I say smiling too. We should find some paper so you can make a list or a chart or something.I feel his laughter against my side his nose sliding along my jaw his lips pressing my ear.Maybe Im already sure he says and I just dont want to frighten you.I laugh a little. Then you should know better.Fine he says. Then I love you.
I existed on my own terms. I was different my entire life. Some called me divergent wild crazy unpredictable and unconformedan apostate to the rules of the majority. I called myself Gods creation and found purpose in the madness. When that day came I didnt allow other people to dictate how I should feel or act. I learned there was no shame in imperfection because history had shown being different had the power to change perspectives and eventually the world. This is when I realized that flaws had responsibility. This was the day that I learned I was truly BLESSED.