How can I love you if I dont know what hurts you

You will be the first test subject Tobias. Beatrice however.... She smiles. You are too injured to be of much use to me so your execution will occur at the conclusion of this meeting.I try to hide the shudder that goes through me at the word execution my shoulder screaming with pain and look up at Tobias. Its hard to blink tears back when I see the terror in Tobiass wide dark eyes.No says Tobias. His voice trembles but his look stern as he shakes his head. I would rather die.Im afraid you dont have much of a choice in that matter replies Jeanine lightly.Tobias takes my face in this hands roughly and kisses me the pressure of his lips pushing mine apart. I forget my pain and the terror of approaching death and for a moment I am grateful that the memory of that kiss will be fresh in my mind as I meet my end.

You said you didnt want to get involved with methat one of us would get hurt and how you couldnt bear it. Well that just isnt good enough..Look what happens to people just living their lives. They get hurt its not fair they get hurt but they do all the time no matter how careful they are. Somebody can just just come along and hurt them for no stupid reason..

Dante laughed. No cold soup no goat cheese. Ill make a mental note. And no Gottfried Curse.And for you its no food at all. No sleep. And no tunnels.Im low maintenance.Is that what you are Because Ive been trying to figure it out all semester.And what have you concludedA mutant. A rare disease. A creature from the inferno. Dante.And what if you found out you were right he asked. What if it meant that I could hurt youI would say that Im not scared. Everyone has the ability to hurt. Its the choice that matters.

Nothing else wounds so deeply and irreparably. Nothing else robs us of hope so much as being unloved by one we love

I made such a fool of myself she lamented.Love does not make you a fool.He didnt love me back.That does not make you a fool either.Just tell me Her voice cracked. When does it stop hurtingSometimes never.

Yes I understand why things had to happen this way. I understand his reason for causing me pain. But mere understanding does not chase away the hurt. It does not call upon the sun when dark clouds have loomed over me. Let the rain come then if it must come And let it wash away the dust that hurt my eyes

Everyone always wants to know how you can tell when its true love and the answer is this when the pain doesnt fade and the scars dont heal and its too damned late.

And maybe that was love. Being so vulnerable and allowing someone else in so far they could hurt you but they also give you everything.

As the light begins to intensify so does my misery and I wonder how it is possible to hurt so much when nothing is wrong.