here she is all mine trying her best to give me all she can. How could I ever hurt her But I didnt understand then. That I could hurt somebody so badly she would never recover. That a person can just by living damage another human being beyond repair.

Sometimes when I look at you I feel Im gazing at a distant star. Its dazzling but the light is from tens of thousands of years ago.Maybe the star doesnt even exist any more. Yet sometimes that light seems more real to me than anything.

I think you still love me but we cant escape the fact that Im not enough for you. I knew this was going to happen. So Im not blaming you for falling in love with another woman. Im not angry either. I should be but Im not. I just feel pain. A lot of pain. I thought I could imagine how much this would hurt but I was wrong.