Ill understand if you dont want me. But I will be heartbroken. You are all I ever dreamed of and hoped for. You are much much more. Please know that I didnt think I was mean-minded. But I realize I am. I dont want you to put your arms around me and say its all right that you forgive me. I want you to be sure that you do and my love for you will last as long as I live. I can see no lightness no humour no joke to make. I just hope that we will be able to go back to when we had laughter and the world was coloured not black and white and grey. I am so sorry for hurting you. I could inflict all kinds of pain on myself but it would not take back any I gave to you. - David Power

Her bed felt huge and empty now and when she slept she did so with her arm around a pillow. She dreamed of him almost every night sometimes good dreams of happy days and joyful times often they were terrible dreams of abandonment loss and sorrow. She didnt know which was worse every morning she woke afresh to the knowledge that he was gone and he would never come back. It would never be all right again.