You picked a lemon throw it away lemonade is overrated. Freaks should remain at the circus not in your apartment. You already have one asshole. You dont need another. Make a space in your life for the glorious things you deserve. Have faith.
Have you ever noticed how when youre happy time seems to pass by fast while when youre miserable it goes real slow Life would have been a blink with you whether it lasted a millennium or a month.