I wanted to be his life preserver the thing that would keep him afloat. Instead he became my anchor. And Im tired of drowning.

I went to a tattoo parlor and had YES written onto the palm of my left hand and NO onto my right palm what can I say it hasnt made my life wonderful its made life possible when I rub my hands against each other in the middle of winter I am warming myself with the friction of YES and NO when I clap my hands I am showing my appreciation through the uniting and parting of YES and NO I signify book by peeling open my hands every book for me is the balance of YES and NO even this one my last one especially this one. Does it break my heart of course every moment of every day into more pieces than my heart was made of I never thought of myself as quiet much less silent I never thought about things at all everything changed the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasnt the world it wasnt the bombs and burning buildings it was me my thinking the cancer of never letting go is ignorance bliss I dont know but its so painful to think and tell me what did thinking ever do for me to what great place did thinking ever bring me I think and think and think Ive thought myself out of happiness one million times but never once into it.

Dogs have given us their absolute all. We are the center of their universe. We are the focus of their love and faith and trust. They serve us in return for scraps. It is without a doubt the best deal man has ever made.

I need the thing that happens when your brain shuts off and your heart turns on.

You know all that sympathy that you feel for an abused child who suffers without a good mom or dad to love and care for them Well they dont stay children forever. No one magically becomes an adult the day they turn eighteen. Some people grow up sooner many grow up later. Some never really do. But just remember that some people in this world are older versions of those same kids we cry for.

My shoulder will never be the same. I expect you to nurse me back to health. - City of Bones said by Jace Wayland

Then he made one last effort to search in his heart for the place where his affection had rotted away and he could not find it.

My headll explode if I continue with this escapism.

Youve changed me forever. And Ill never forget you.

Love God and He will enable you to love others even when they disappoint you.