She didnt understand what it was like to be filled with a love so strong that it made your chest achea love you could only feel and not express. Keeping love buried was a lot like keeping anger pent up Id learned. It just ate you up inside until you wanted to scream or kick something.

You act young he said because you are young. But you know things Roza. Things people older than you dont even know. That day.... I knew instantly which day he referred to. The one up against the wall. You were right about how I fight to stay in control. No one else has ever figured that out- and it scared me. You scare me.Why Dont you want anyone to knowHe shrugged. Whether they know that fact or not doesnt matter. What matters is that someone- that you- know me that well. When a person can see into your soul its hard. It forces you to be open. Vulnerable. Its much easier being with someone whos just more of a casual friend.Like Tasha.Tasha Ozera is an amazing woman. Shes beautiful and shes brave. But she doesnt-She doesnt get you I finished.He nodded. I knew that. But I still wanted the relationship. I knew it would be easy and that she could take me away from you. I thought she could make me forget you.Id thought the same thing about Mason. But she couldnt.Yes. And so.....thats a problem.

Wow said Adrian. He sat down on the bed and tested its bounciness giving it a nod of approval. This is amazing. What do you think buttercupI have no words I said honestly.He patted the spot beside him. Want to try it out

You know he said under normal circumstances you inviting me to the bedroom would be the highlight of my day.I crossed my arms and sat on the bed. I did so out of simple fatigue but a moment later I was struck by what I was doing. This is where Adrian sleeps. Im touching the covers hes wrapped in every night. What does he wear Does he wear anythingI jumped up.

Im not a warrior or a goddess I said at last.Adrian leaned closer. As far as Im concerned youre both.

I realized Im in love. Its always been right in front of me.

I had never thought I could love another person this much. I also never thought Id live in such fear of losing another person. Was this how everyone in love felt Did they all cling tightly to their beloved and wake up terrified in the middle of the night afraid of being alone Was that an inevitable way of life when you loved so deeply Or was it just those of us who walked on a precipice who lived in such panic

Centrum permanebit.

Everything about her has to do with me.

The center will hold. How do you know Because we are the center.