About all you can do in life is be who you are. Some people will love you for you. Most will love you for what you can do for them and some wont like you at all.
If you stay Ill do whatever you want. Ill quit the band go with you to New York. But if you need me to go away Ill do that too. I was talking to Liz and she said maybe coming back to your old life would be too painful that maybe itd be easier for you to erase us. And that would suck but Id do it. I can lose you like that if I dont lose you today. Ill let you go. If you stay.
I could not tell you if I loved you the first moment I saw you or if it was the second or third or fourth. But I remember the first moment I looked at you walking toward me and realized that somehow the rest of the world seemed to vanish when I was with you.
Sometimes when I look at you I feel Im gazing at a distant star. Its dazzling but the light is from tens of thousands of years ago.Maybe the star doesnt even exist any more. Yet sometimes that light seems more real to me than anything.
to love life to love it evenwhen you have no stomach for itand everything youve held dearcrumbles like burnt paper in your handsyour throat filled with the silt of it.When grief sits with you its tropical heatthickening the air heavy as watermore fit for gills than lungswhen grief weights you like your own fleshonly more of it an obesity of griefyou think How can a body withstand thisThen you hold life like a facebetween your palms a plain faceno charming smile no violet eyesand you say yes I will take youI will love you again.