If he loved with all the powers of his puny being he couldnt love as much in eighty years as I could in a day.

Even more I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach in the center of my bones knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you

Were staying together he promised. Youre not getting away from me. Never again.

I am not an angel I asserted and I will not be one till I die I will be myself. Mr. Rochester you must neither expect nor exact anything celestial of me - for you will not get it any more than I shall get it of you which I do not at all anticipate.

People like to say love is unconditional but its not and even if it was unconditional its still never free. Theres always an expectation attached. They always want something in return. Like they want you to be happy or whatever and that makes you automatically responsible for their happiness because they wont be happy unless you are ... I just dont want that responsibility.

You are the one girl that made me risk eveything for a future worth having.

Wherever you will go I will let you down But this lullaby goes on.

Holding Eleanors hand was like holding a butterfly. Or a heartbeat. Like holding something complete and completely alive.

Therefore dear Sir love your solitude and try to sing out with the pain it causes you. For those who are near you are far away... and this shows that the space around you is beginning to grow vast.... be happy about your growth in which of course you cant take anyone with you and be gentle with those who stay behind be confident and calm in front of them and dont torment them with your doubts and dont frighten them with your faith or joy which they wouldnt be able to comprehend. Seek out some simple and true feeling of what you have in common with them which doesnt necessarily have to alter when you yourself change again and again when you see them love life in a form that is not your own and be indulgent toward those who are growing old who are afraid of the aloneness that you trust.... and dont expect any understanding but believe in a love that is being stored up for you like an inheritance and have faith that in this love there is a strength and a blessing so large that you can travel as far as you wish without having to step outside it.

Watch out for intellectbecause it knows so much it knows nothingand leaves you hanging upside downmouthing knowledge as your heartfalls out of your mouth.