So what I want to know is why it is that I can no longer find you in my mind. You are still there just but you are there like a ghost a will o the wisp. Not long ago you burned--your heart burned--in my mind like silver fire. But after that night in the inn it became patchy and dim and now it is not there at all.Could it be that the heart that you seek is no longer my own I have given my heart to another.The boy The one in the inn With the unicornYes.You should have let me take it back then for my sisters and me. We could have been young again well into the next age of the world. Your boy will break it or waste it or lose it. They all do.Nonetheless he has my heart. I hope your sisters will not be too hard on you when you return to them without it.

I am the most miserable person who ever lived he said... You are young and in love said Primus. Every young man in your position is the most miserable young man who ever lived.