Prayer is based on the remote possibility that someone is actually listening but so is a lot of conversation. If the former seems far-fetcher consider the latter even if someone is listening to your story and really hearing that person will disappear from existence in the blink of a cosmic eye so why bother to tell this perhaps illusory and possibly un-listening person something he or she is unlikely to truly understand just before the two of you blip back out of existence We like to talk to people who answer us intelligently if possible but we do talk without needing response or expecting comprehension. Sometimes the event is the word the act of speaking. Once we pull that apart a bit the action of talking becomes more important than the question of whether the talking is working-because we know going in that the talking is not working. That said one might as well pray.

I wept for relationships not possible due to denial and dreams locked in the back of peoples minds all of the bits of life that lay dormant until the babblings of televisions and nursing homes sweep them away. It makes me wonder how many of the dreams we had originally have already been forgotten.

When our dreams dont come true sometimes we can hand them down to our children and hope that they will come true for them. The joy can be immeasurable just the same.

When Randolph Carter was thirty he lost the key of the gate of dreams.

Dream headline from Orafouraville Times Man Let Go By Employer Falls To Death

Thus fortified I might take my rest in peace. But dreams come through stone walls light up dark rooms or darken light ones and their persons make their exists and their entrances as they please and laugh at locksmiths.

You didnt wake up your dreams just changed gear.

Dreams link us to those who have already left this life.

So you make this deal with the gods. You do these dances and theyll send rain and good crops and the whole works And nothing bad will ever happen. Right. Prayer had always struck me as more or less a glorified attempt at a business transaction. A rain dance even more so.I thought I might finally have offended Loyd past the point of no return like stealing the lobster from frozen foods that time to get myself fired. But Loyd was just thinking. After a minute he said No its not like that. Its not making a deal bad things can still happen but you want to try not to cause them to happen. It has to do with keeping things in balance.In balance.Really its like the spirits have made a deal with us.And what is the deal I asked.Were on our own. The spirits have been good enough to let us live here and use the utilities and were saying We know how nice youre being. We appreciate the rain we appreciate the sun we appreciate the deer we took. Sorry if we messed up anything. Youve gone to a lot of trouble and well try to be good guests.Like a note youd send somebody after you stayed in their houseExactly like that. Thanks for letting me sleep on your couch. I took some beer out of the refrigerator and I broke a coffee cup. Sorry I hope it wasnt your favorite one.

I write down my dreams. I use the excuse Im writing to sleep all the time.