You cant fool people into loving you.

What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time my ego my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.

Why do I do anything? she says. I'm educated enough to talk myself out of any plan. To de-construct any fantasy. Explain away any goal. I'm so smart I can negate any dream.