She didnt understand what it was like to be filled with a love so strong that it made your chest achea love you could only feel and not express. Keeping love buried was a lot like keeping anger pent up Id learned. It just ate you up inside until you wanted to scream or kick something.

Vladimir did great thingsso could she. Besides they come first rightNot always.I stared. Id had they come first drilled into me since I was a child. It was what all guardians believed. Only the dhampirs whod run away from their duty didnt subscribe to that. What he said was almost like treason.Sometimes Rose you have to know when to put yourself first.

Did you mean it... that if Victor did tell...that youd... I couldnt finish. I couldnt bring myself to say the words have him killed.I dont have much influence in the upper levels of Moroi royalty but I have plenty among the guardians who handle the dirty work in our world.You didnt answer the question. If youd really do it.Id do a lot of things to protect you Roza.

He sighed and then focused his eyes right on me. It was like drowning drowning in seas of green. There was nothing in the world except for those eyes.I want to kiss you Rose he said softly. And I want you to want me too.

Wait. You think Im going to die Thats why you slept with me

If you want some advicewhich Im sure you dontyou guys should lay off on the magic. Christian still thinks youre moving in on Lissa.What he asked in mock astonishment. Doesnt he know my heart belongs to youIt does not. And no hes still worried about it despite what Ive told him.You know I bet if we started making out right now it would make him feel better.If you touch me I said pleasantly Ill provide you with the opportunity to see if you can heal yourself. Then wed see how badass you really are.

We cant... he told me.I know I agreed.Then his mouth was on mine again and this time I knew there would be no turning back. There were no walls this time. Our bodies wrapped together as he tried to get my coat off then his shirt then my shirt. ... It really was a lot like when wed fought out on the quad earlier-that same passion and heat. I think at the end of the day the instincts that power fighting and sex arent so different. They all come from an animal side of us. Yet as more and more clothes came off it went beyond just animal passion. It was sweet and wonderful at the same time. When I looked into his eyes I could see without a doubt that he loved me more than anyone else in the world that I was his salvation the same way that he was mine. Id never expected my first time to be in a cabin in the woods but I realized the place didnt matter. The person did. With someone you loved you could be anywhere and it would be incredible. Being in the most luxurious bed in the world wouldnt matter if you were with someone you didnt love.

No Dimitri interrupted gently. He moved his face toward mine our foreheads nearly touching. It wont happen to you. Youre too strong. Youll fight it just like you did thistime.I only did because you were here. He wrapped his arms around me and I buried my face in his chest. I cant do it by myself I whispered.You can he said. There was a tremulous note in his voice. Youre strongyoure so so strong. Its why I love you.