Maybe its just hiding somewhere. Or gone on a trip to come home. But falling in love is always a pretty crazy thing. It might appear out of the blue and just grab you. Who knows maybe even tomorrow.

And sometimes I believe your relentless analysis of June leaves something out which is your feeling for her beyond knowledge or in spite of knowledge. I often see how you sob over what you destroy how you want to stop and just worship and you do stop and then a moment later you are at it again with a knife like a surgeon.What will you do after you have revealed all there is to know about June Truth. What ferocity in your quest of it. You destroy and you suffer. In some strange way I am not with you I am against you. We are destined to hold two truths. I love you and I fight you. And you the same. We will be stronger for it each of us stronger with our love and our hate. When you caricature and nail down and tear apart I hate you. I want to answer you not with weak or stupid poetry but with a wonder as strong as your reality. I want to fight your surgical knife with all the occult and magical forces of the world.

The very quality of your life whether you love it or hate it is based upon how thankful you are toward God. It is ones attitude that determines whether life unfolds into a place of blessedness or wretchedness. Indeed looking at the same rose bush some people complain that the roses have thorns while others rejoice that some thorns come with roses. It all depends on your perspective. This is the only life you will have before you enter eternity. If you want to find joy you must first find thankfulness. Indeed the one who is thankful for even a little enjoys much. But the unappreciative soul is always miserable always complaining. He lives outside the shelter of the Most High God.Perhaps the worst enemy we have is not the devil but our own tongue. James tells us The tongue is set among our members as that which . . . sets on fire the course of our life James 36. He goes on to say this fire is ignited by hell. Consider with our own words we can enter the spirit of heaven or the agonies of hell It is hell with its punishments torments and misery that controls the life of the grumbler and complainer Paul expands this thought in 1 Corinthians 1010 where he reminds us of the Jews who grumbled . . . and were destroyed by the destroyer. The fact is every time we open up to grumbling and complaining the quality of our life is reduced proportionally -- a destroyer is bringing our life to ruinPeople often ask me What is the ruling demon over our church or city They expect me to answer with the ancient Aramaic or Phoenician name of a fallen angel. What I usually tell them is a lot more practical one of the most pervasive evil influences over our nation is ingratitudeDo not minimize the strength and cunning of this enemy Paul said that the Jews who grumbled and complained during their difficult circumstances were destroyed by the destroyer. Who was this destroyer If you insist on discerning an ancient world ruler one of the most powerful spirits mentioned in the Bible is Abaddon whose Greek name is Apollyon. It means destroyer Rev. 911. Paul said the Jews were destroyed by this spirit. In other words when we are complaining or unthankful we open the door to the destroyer Abaddon the demon king over the abyss of hell In the Presence of GodMultitudes in our nation have become specialists in the science of misery. They are experts -- moral accountants who can in a moment tally all the wrongs society has ever done to them or their group. I have never talked with one of these people who was happy blessed or content about anything. They expect an imperfect world to treat them perfectly.Truly there are people in this wounded country of ours who need special attention. However most of us simply need to repent of ingratitude for it is ingratitude itself that is keeping wounds alive We simply need to forgive the wrongs of the past and become thankful for what we have in the present.The moment we become grateful we actually begin to ascend spiritually into the presence of God. The psalmist wroteServe the Lord with gladness come before Him with joyful singing. . . . Enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise. Give thanks to Him bless His name. For the Lord is good His lovingkindness is everlasting and His faithfulness to all generations Psalm 1002 4-5.It does not matter what your circumstances are the instant you begin to thank God even though your situation has not changed you begin to change. The key that unlocks the gates of heaven is a thankful heart. Entrance into the courts of God comes as you simply begin to praise the Lord.

Love being in love isnt a constant thing. It doesnt always flow at the same strength. Its not always like a river in flood. Its more like the sea. It has tides it ebbs and flows. The thing is when love is real whether its ebbing or flowing its always there it never goes away. And thats the only proof you can have that it is real and not just a crush or an infatuation or a passing fancy

Ive been lonely for so long. And Ive been hurt so deeply. If only I could have met you again a long time ago then I wouldnt have had to take all these detours to get here.Tengo shook his head. I dont think so. This way is just fine. This is exactly the right time. For both of us. ... We needed that much time.... to understand how lonely we really were.

It was as if the empty nights were made for thinking of him. And sometimes I found myself so vividly aware of him it was as if he had only just left the room and the ring of his voice were still there. And somehow there was a disturbing comfort in that and despite myself Id envision his face.

Love comes with a knife not some shy question and not with fears for its reputation

I...will never...regret you.

Wisdom is knowing I am nothingLove is knowing I am everythingand between the two my life moves.

This isnt a crush its obsession.You are never not in my thoughts. Your scent carries across a room and paralyzes me with longing. I dont want to hold your hand. Part of me wants to set you on fire and hold you while the flame consumes us both to eat your heart so I know that only I possess it entirely.