Because...because...she came here with me.

Hes dozed off again but I kiss him awake which seems to startle him. Then he smiles as if hed be happy to lie there gazing at me forever.

I just...I just miss him. And I hate being so alone.

But I have to confess Im glad you two had at least a few months of happiness together.Im not glad says Peeta. I wish we had waited until the whole thing was done officially.This takes even Caesar aback. Surely even a brief time is better than no timeMaybe Id think that too Caesar says Peeta bitterly If it werent for the baby.

You have a... remarkable memory.I remember everything about you. Youre the one who wasnt paying attention.

We could do it you know.WhatLeave the district. Run off. Live in the woods. You and I we could make it.

And then he gives me a smile that just seems so genuinely sweet with just the right touch of shyness that unexpected warmth rushes through me.

Sometimes when Im alone I take the pearl from where it lives in my pocket and try to remember the boy with the bread the strong arms that warded off nightmares on the train the kisses in the arena.

Peeta how come I never know when youre having a nightmare I say.I dont know. I dont think I cry out or thrash around or anything. I just come to paralyzed with terror he says.You should wake me I say thinking about how I can interrupt his sleep two or three times on a bad night. About how long it can take to calm me down.Its not necessary. My nightmares are usually about losing you he says. Im okay once I realize youre here.

You love me. Real or not realI tell him Real.