If youre suddenly doing something you dont want to do for four years just so youve got something to fall back on by the time you come out you dont have that 16-year-old drive any more and youll spend your life doing something you never wanted to do in the first place.

Life is really very simple. In each moment we have the opportunity to choose between saying yes or no to listen to our intuition to listen to our true inner voice the Existential voice within ourselves. When we say yes we have contact with Existence and we receive nourishment love joy support and inspiration. When we say no we create a separation from life and begin to create dreams and expectations of how it should be. We begin to live in the memories of the past and in the fantasies of the future as if any other time than here and now really could make us happy and satisfied.

Remember He WANTS your fellowship and He has done everything possible to make it a reality. He has forgiven your sins at the cost of His own dear Son. He has given you His Word and the priceless privilege of prayer and worship.

But sleep didnt come. She could hear Jaces soft piano playing through the walls but that wasnt what was keeping her awake. She was thinking of Simon leaving for a house that no longer felt like home to him of the despair in Jaces voice as he said I want to hate you and of Magnus not telling Jace the truth that Alec did not want Jace to know about his relationship because he was still in love with him. She thought of the satisfaction it would have brought Magnus to say the words out loud to acknowledge what the truth was and the fact that he hadnt said them - had let Alec go on lying and pretending - because that was what Alec wanted and Magnus cared about Alec enough to give him that. Maybe it was true what the Seelie Queen had said after all Love made you a liar.

Cheese I exclaimed. It was a secret prayer whose meaning was known only to God and to me.

I had a dream about you. We were traveling in your car. You were driving and I was securely fastened by ropes and duct tape in the trunk. I tried telling you my family has no money but you had to find out the hard way.

Our rest is formed by our waking life and our waking life is formed by our sorrows.

Lord Jesus Christy whispered I want You to hold the key. I want You to decide what should happen in my hearts garden. I want You to let in or send out anything or anybody You want. Especially with guys. I dont want to ever unlock that gate again. I want you to open it only when the right man comes along. Take the key Lord. Take all my keys. Ill wait for you.

If one does die taking these drugs the death is likely to be very peaceful. Morphia is after all the goddess of dreams.

How they had dreamed together he and she... how they had planned and laughed and loved. They had lived for a while in the very heart of poetry.