If pain must come may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him.

Dear GodI hurt. Please hold me.Amen

Lets face it suffering discredits goodness. Im agnostic in practice though faith-based in theory. I used to pray but now know hell do what he darn well pleases when he darn well pleases. Will he listen Maybe. We have a book that says so but how much happens beyond that book I cant say. Thats agnosticism in its bleakest and most honest form. Dont judge me yet believe me when I tell you that years of abuse tend to wring out every ounce of ones ability to understand and adhere to faith in standard form.

It is good for us to have trials and troubles at times for they often remind us that we are on probation and ought not to hope in any worldly thing. It is good for us sometimes to suffer contradiction to be misjudged by men even though we do well and mean well. These things help us to be humble and shield us from vainglory. When to all outward appearances men give us no credit when they do not think well of us then we are more inclined to seek God Who sees our hearts. Therefore a man ought to root himself so firmly in God that he will not need the consolations of men.

Dream thieves are those who leave their real dreams aside and struggle to pick other peoples dreams to work on. They suffer to do attempt what they cant do

I am enduring temporary sufferings to fulfill my dearest dreams.

When you compare the sorrows of real life to the pleasures of the imaginary one, you will never want to live again, only to dream forever.