The unqualified truth is that when I loved Estella with the love of a man I loved her simply because I found her irresistible. Once for all I knew to my sorrow often and often if not always that I loved her against reason against promise against peace against hope against happiness against all discouragement that could be. Once for all I love her none the less because I knew it and it had no more influence in restraining me than if I had devoutly believed her to be human perfection.

I hold the bottle out into the rain and watch as the steady flow slowly fills it. When there is enough enough that Beth can clearly see I close the bottle and hand it to her.She raises a skeptical eyebrow but accepts the bottle.Its our rain Beth.Her head barely shakes to show her confusion while I rub the back of my neck and search for my courage. I told you I loved you in this rain and when you doubt my words I want you to look at this bottle.

I am almost a hundred years old waiting for the end and thinking about the beginning.There are things I need to tell you but would you listen if I told you how quickly time passesI know you are unable to imagine this.Nevertheless I can tell you that you will awake someday to find that your life has rushed by at a speed at once impossible and cruel. The most intense moments will seem to have occurred only yesterday and nothing will have erased the pain and pleasure the impossible intensity of love and its dog-leaping happiness the bleak blackness of passions unrequited or unexpressed or unresolved.

We looked at each other for a minute not saying anything but I could feel the air between us shift. It became thick sultry and tangiblelike when the air changes right before a storm. I could feel its power envelop me as it brushed across my skin. Even though I couldnt see it I knew a storm was coming.

There are all kinds of ways for a relationship to be tested even broken some irrevocably its the endings were unprepared for.

No human should mislead another by promising them something they know to be untrue.

When we first met I didnt want to get involved with anyone. I didnt have the time or energy and I wasnt sure that I was ready for it. But you were so good to me and I got swept up in that. And little by little I found myself falling in love with you.

Hydrogenated and androgynous milky white love is all I have to offer you. Would you like me to pour it in your coffee or directly into your soul

Because I trust in the ever-changing climate of the heart. At least today I feel that way. I think it is necessary to have many experiences for the sake of feeling something for the sake of being challenged and for the sake of being expressive to offer something to someone else to learn what we are capable of.

Unrequited love is the only possible way to give yourself to another without being held in indentured servitude.